Thursday, November 22, 2007
Monday, November 12, 2007
Updates
My sister is out of the hospital. She was sent home with six different medications. Pain killers, iron pills, anti-biotics, and three others I don't remember at the moment. The only one she has taken is the anti-biotics. She still hasn't scheduled her appointment to have her staples removed. She doesn't seem too concerned. That makes ME concerned. The doctors won't let my mom make the appointments because my sister is an adult. She won't make them herself because she thinks its my mom's job to take care of her. Sometimes dealing with my sister can be extremely frustrating.
My father-in-law is home. He was on a triple dose of his blood thinner meds. Thankfully, there was no damage to his heart as a result of it. I'm not sure who was responsible for prescribing such a high dosage, but I hope they figure it out and do something about it.
My aunt with cancer is still in Anchorage. They were not able to find cancer with a PET scan, or any of the other tests they ran on her. But the surgeon who removed her uterus is insisting there is cancer so they are going ahead with the treatment. I believe she starts radiation tomorrow. I sincerely hope the surgeon knows what he's talking about because, from what I understand, one can only have radiation treatment once. Should they treat the wrong area it would all be a waste. If she doesn't have cancer and should somehow get cancer in the future, what will that mean? I really, really hope that surgeon knows what he's doing. I'm told the PET scan is THE test for finding cancer...it is supposedly the most accurate of all available resources. I don't understand why there is a discrepancy.
On a lighter note, I woke up to see SNOW on our mountains! I was so happy about that. :o) Not as happy as I will be to wake up to a snow covered car, haha, but happy.
Not much else to report on after a laid-back, uneventful weekend.
Oh, Lindsey played in a basketball tournament this weekend and made the All-Tourney Team! She scored 20 of the teams 34 points in the final game!
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Motion Sickness
So the roller coaster has slowed down a bit, but has not stopped.
Yesterday my father in law was medi-vacced because he was experiencing pain in his left arm and they were concerned about his heart. He has had heart surgery in the past. A triple bypass, I believe, so we were all scared. It turned out that his medication dosage was wrong. He's taking blood thinner and they gave him twice the dosage he should have had. He did not have any heart damage as a result, thank goodness! My aunt in the hospital with cancer is my father-in-law's sister (but that's not how she became my aunt...more about her in another post) so needless to say, we were quite relieved to know Dad is okay.
Our town elections were on the 6th. With a bigger turn-out than we've had in years, our entire administration has been replaced. Mayor, Secretary, Treasure...all with young, un-experienced people. I'm a bit nervous about how things will go the next 2 years, but I guess everyone deserves a chance.
I was so ready for some good news and I bet you're already tired of hearing about my worries and woes, so I'll share. :o)
My laptop came in! That's right...I'm at work, typing this on my brand new GREEN laptop! I love it...absolutely love it! I'm online via a wireless connection that was a snap to set up. Makes me want wireless at my house, but I'll take my ancient dial-up for now. I got this mainly for travel, anyway. I'm planning so far ahead. haha. I'm going to Juneau in March for a week...and wanted a laptop to take with me. It took a lot of encouragement from Michael, though, let me tell ya. I love to spend money on other people. Spending it on myself is a chore. Even if it's "free" money.
My lunch break is just about over. I better stop here. Hope you are all happy and well. The week is almost over!
Monday, November 05, 2007
Too Much Going On
Well, it's been 2 months since my last post. I highly doubt anyone even visits anymore, but here's my attempt to catch up.
First of all, work was super crazy this year at the beginning. It wasn't till we neared the end of the 1st quarter, things settled down for me. I finally feel like I'm in a routine and am very happy about that. There are a couple teachers I have "issues" with, but nothing worth mentioning and definitely nothing I can't handle.
My life at home has been a roller coaster with huge drops, intense climbs uphill, and crazy loop-de-loops. I hate roller coasters.
If my life consisted of nothing but work and Michael, it would be a piece of cake. But I've got a huge extended family and for some reason, we love our drama.
My uncle still won't talk to me after our big house ordeal. We see each other all the time at family functions but he just won't interact with me. If I smile or say, "Hi Uncle John" he just looks away. I'M the one who lost in the whole thing. It was never his house to take. He didn't lose anything. I lost the place I had called home for more than 5 years and probably the only reason my mom had to move home. Without a house to come home to, I doubt she'll ever return.
My Aunty Rita went north to Anchorage for a hysterectomy. During the surgery, they found cancer in her cervix. She's back up there now for a week of further tests. Hopefully, they'll find that her cancer, although believed to be in stage 3, will be treatable and she'll start radiation by next Monday.
My sister is in the hospital in California. She's been bleeding for the past 2 months. She had extreme abdominal pain late Saturday night and my mom called an ambulance. She was extrenely anemic and in need of a blood transfusion. They stabalized her, took some x-rays, and discovered her uterus is FULL of fibroid tumors. She was to have surgery today at Noon...2 and a half hours ago now. They said they wouldn't know until they had her open whether they could take the tumors or if they'd have to do a hysterectomy. I haven't slept in 2 days because I know my sister. She's stubborn, combative, and mean tempered. I'm worried that the doctors and nurses will grow tired of being belittled and lectured every time they enter her room. She won't let my mom visit or even call. When I called she said, "Hang up I'm trying to sleep." When SHE called my dad, she hung up on him. My dad is so hurt. We both stayed home from work today because we're too stressed from worrying about a loved one who wants nothing to do with us. He called me and I told him what I knew about fibroid tumors, reassured him that my sister isn't directing ALL her anger towards him, but the rest of us, too. We talked for over half an hour. That's a long time for my dad to talk but I think he felt better once we hung up. He promised to stop by later on. He said my sister really hurt him and he needs to feel good again. I hope I can live up to the challenge.
Other than that, I'm just waiting for the temps to cool. We have snow on the mountains, but it's still too high up for my liking. :o) We were in the 30's all day yesterday and I loved it. We even had some very thin ice on the more shallow ponds around the island. Today it's 45. :o(
I'm patiently awaiting the arrival of my new GREEN Dell laptop. They shipped it next day...but they shipped it DHL and we don't have DHL near here. The nearest is Anchorage. They signed for it last week and I'm assuming they put it in regular mail. Trouble is, we've had a lot of high winds lately. When the wind isn't blowing, it's foggy. So that probably slowed the mail a bit. I've always been told I'm a very patient person. This is definitely putting me to the test!
If anyone reads this, I hope you are happy and well.
First of all, work was super crazy this year at the beginning. It wasn't till we neared the end of the 1st quarter, things settled down for me. I finally feel like I'm in a routine and am very happy about that. There are a couple teachers I have "issues" with, but nothing worth mentioning and definitely nothing I can't handle.
My life at home has been a roller coaster with huge drops, intense climbs uphill, and crazy loop-de-loops. I hate roller coasters.
If my life consisted of nothing but work and Michael, it would be a piece of cake. But I've got a huge extended family and for some reason, we love our drama.
My uncle still won't talk to me after our big house ordeal. We see each other all the time at family functions but he just won't interact with me. If I smile or say, "Hi Uncle John" he just looks away. I'M the one who lost in the whole thing. It was never his house to take. He didn't lose anything. I lost the place I had called home for more than 5 years and probably the only reason my mom had to move home. Without a house to come home to, I doubt she'll ever return.
My Aunty Rita went north to Anchorage for a hysterectomy. During the surgery, they found cancer in her cervix. She's back up there now for a week of further tests. Hopefully, they'll find that her cancer, although believed to be in stage 3, will be treatable and she'll start radiation by next Monday.
My sister is in the hospital in California. She's been bleeding for the past 2 months. She had extreme abdominal pain late Saturday night and my mom called an ambulance. She was extrenely anemic and in need of a blood transfusion. They stabalized her, took some x-rays, and discovered her uterus is FULL of fibroid tumors. She was to have surgery today at Noon...2 and a half hours ago now. They said they wouldn't know until they had her open whether they could take the tumors or if they'd have to do a hysterectomy. I haven't slept in 2 days because I know my sister. She's stubborn, combative, and mean tempered. I'm worried that the doctors and nurses will grow tired of being belittled and lectured every time they enter her room. She won't let my mom visit or even call. When I called she said, "Hang up I'm trying to sleep." When SHE called my dad, she hung up on him. My dad is so hurt. We both stayed home from work today because we're too stressed from worrying about a loved one who wants nothing to do with us. He called me and I told him what I knew about fibroid tumors, reassured him that my sister isn't directing ALL her anger towards him, but the rest of us, too. We talked for over half an hour. That's a long time for my dad to talk but I think he felt better once we hung up. He promised to stop by later on. He said my sister really hurt him and he needs to feel good again. I hope I can live up to the challenge.
Other than that, I'm just waiting for the temps to cool. We have snow on the mountains, but it's still too high up for my liking. :o) We were in the 30's all day yesterday and I loved it. We even had some very thin ice on the more shallow ponds around the island. Today it's 45. :o(
I'm patiently awaiting the arrival of my new GREEN Dell laptop. They shipped it next day...but they shipped it DHL and we don't have DHL near here. The nearest is Anchorage. They signed for it last week and I'm assuming they put it in regular mail. Trouble is, we've had a lot of high winds lately. When the wind isn't blowing, it's foggy. So that probably slowed the mail a bit. I've always been told I'm a very patient person. This is definitely putting me to the test!
If anyone reads this, I hope you are happy and well.
Monday, September 10, 2007
Happy Birthday, Lindsey!
Today is Lindsey’s birthday. She’s a whopping 14 years old. I was looking through some old pictures last night. She was such a cute little girl! Too bad she was so nuts and attached to her mother. We didn’t have her as much as we did Lucione. You’d never know it by how close we are now, though.
She tells me I’m her favorite aunt and her 2nd Mom. She’ll sometimes ask me for permission to do something while I’m sitting right next to her mother! She’s got a 4.0 in school and when asked why, she’ll tell you it’s “because Aunty Carrie makes me do my homework”.
She has grown into a beautiful young lady. She’s recently had braces put on her teeth and is taking it all in stride. She doesn’t complain about the pain, even when the wires pop out, which has to be really frustrating.
She is very athletic. She proudly announced the other day that she can run a mile in 11 minutes. She loves to climb the rock wall at the gym. She is an excellent basketball player and enjoys volleyball, as well.
Lindsey has started to crush on boys. I can’t believe that my little tomboy now applies make-up, straightens her hair, and wears fashionable clothes.
I’m at work, so can’t post pictures. I’ll try to remember to put some up later tonight if I can find the time before her party.
She tells me I’m her favorite aunt and her 2nd Mom. She’ll sometimes ask me for permission to do something while I’m sitting right next to her mother! She’s got a 4.0 in school and when asked why, she’ll tell you it’s “because Aunty Carrie makes me do my homework”.
She has grown into a beautiful young lady. She’s recently had braces put on her teeth and is taking it all in stride. She doesn’t complain about the pain, even when the wires pop out, which has to be really frustrating.
She is very athletic. She proudly announced the other day that she can run a mile in 11 minutes. She loves to climb the rock wall at the gym. She is an excellent basketball player and enjoys volleyball, as well.
Lindsey has started to crush on boys. I can’t believe that my little tomboy now applies make-up, straightens her hair, and wears fashionable clothes.
I’m at work, so can’t post pictures. I’ll try to remember to put some up later tonight if I can find the time before her party.
Monday, September 03, 2007
Why I Haven't Been Posting
Mainly, I haven't been posting because I couldn't find time! Michael was unemployed all of July and August right along with me so we kept busy. We were rarely home and when we were the last thing I wanted to do was sit at my computer.
It was so nice having so much time with him. We spent a lot of time outdoors, visiting family and friends, and just being together. It was really nice and if my pocketbook wasn't almost empty, I'd be sad that it is over! :o)
I miraculously managed to make my final paycheck last all summer long. I'm just now starting to get nervous about needing money. At least I was, then my dad gave me some money for my birthday. He said he didn't have time to shop so just gave me money. Little did he know the money is a lifesaver and I am so grateful he didn't shop!
The whole month of August was a whirlwind. We started off with two potlaches. One of our dance groups reached their 20 year anniversary and another their 10 so they each had a potlatch to celebrate. We also had our new road dedicated. It's not complete yet, but I think they wanted to have the dedication ceremony on the anniversary of the ground breaking ceremony.
I've seen articles and blog posts about this road. I don't think anyone really knows the "real" story. When they talk about this being another "Road to Nowhere" (That is what a new road on the neighboring island has been dubbed), it only shows they don't understand the full impact of what this road will offer. I've even seen it written that "The road isn't even complete or connected to the town. They can't figure out how." That is entirely false. The road is built, just not paved and ready to use. The last few yards that connect the road to our town were done last to keep people from going where they didn't belong. It IS connected now, but remains closed. This road will have a huge impact on our lives when it is open. It will allow us to go to Town to shop, work, eat, or even see a movie and then COME BACK home. We won't have to move over there to work, or spend a night in a hotel just to watch a movie. It will also force our grocery store and gas station to have competitive prices. They will no longer have a monopoly because we will have a choice. The road will help tourism because it will provide easier and quick access. This road has also helped the military. I saw an interview on CNN a while ago...they were interviewing a soldier who had been to Iraq. He was in charge of building roads for their military vehicles to travel. When asked how he learned to do this, he said, "I learned it on a little island in Alaska, called Annette." Tens of thousands of men and women have been through here for the past 10 years. If nothing else that's good ever comes from this road, they got some necessary training and were able to use what they learned in service for our country.
The day after our road dedication, was our Founders Day. We celebrated 120 years this year. We had a parade, fun and games, food booths, and fireworks. It was a lot of fun. There were a lot of out-of-town visitors and many family and friends who came home for the occasion.
We had family visiting until around the 10th. Then we started in with birthdays. August is full of family birthdays. I don't care if I never have another piece of cake! I'm still trying to finish up my own.
On the 20th I headed back to work. We had two seperate two day workshops. That made for an exhausting week. On the 27th, the kids started school. The first week was so much fun. Some of the kids acted as if they hadn't seen each other in years and I KNOW they played together all summer long! :o)
I didn't have any visitors on my birthday because we were at a memorial service. Michael's dziish (grandmother)passed away at the age of 97. She was a wonderful lady who loved everyone and was loved by all. She called everyone her baby. She wasn't afraid to tell you if she thought you were doing wrong. But was always quick to tell you when you had made her happy or proud. She will definitely be missed by all who knew her.
So there you go...we had a lot going on...I just didn't make time to come and tell you about it. Hopefully now that I'm back on a regular schedule, I'll find time to write a post every now and then. Certainly more than the one a month I've been averaging!
It was so nice having so much time with him. We spent a lot of time outdoors, visiting family and friends, and just being together. It was really nice and if my pocketbook wasn't almost empty, I'd be sad that it is over! :o)
I miraculously managed to make my final paycheck last all summer long. I'm just now starting to get nervous about needing money. At least I was, then my dad gave me some money for my birthday. He said he didn't have time to shop so just gave me money. Little did he know the money is a lifesaver and I am so grateful he didn't shop!
The whole month of August was a whirlwind. We started off with two potlaches. One of our dance groups reached their 20 year anniversary and another their 10 so they each had a potlatch to celebrate. We also had our new road dedicated. It's not complete yet, but I think they wanted to have the dedication ceremony on the anniversary of the ground breaking ceremony.
I've seen articles and blog posts about this road. I don't think anyone really knows the "real" story. When they talk about this being another "Road to Nowhere" (That is what a new road on the neighboring island has been dubbed), it only shows they don't understand the full impact of what this road will offer. I've even seen it written that "The road isn't even complete or connected to the town. They can't figure out how." That is entirely false. The road is built, just not paved and ready to use. The last few yards that connect the road to our town were done last to keep people from going where they didn't belong. It IS connected now, but remains closed. This road will have a huge impact on our lives when it is open. It will allow us to go to Town to shop, work, eat, or even see a movie and then COME BACK home. We won't have to move over there to work, or spend a night in a hotel just to watch a movie. It will also force our grocery store and gas station to have competitive prices. They will no longer have a monopoly because we will have a choice. The road will help tourism because it will provide easier and quick access. This road has also helped the military. I saw an interview on CNN a while ago...they were interviewing a soldier who had been to Iraq. He was in charge of building roads for their military vehicles to travel. When asked how he learned to do this, he said, "I learned it on a little island in Alaska, called Annette." Tens of thousands of men and women have been through here for the past 10 years. If nothing else that's good ever comes from this road, they got some necessary training and were able to use what they learned in service for our country.
The day after our road dedication, was our Founders Day. We celebrated 120 years this year. We had a parade, fun and games, food booths, and fireworks. It was a lot of fun. There were a lot of out-of-town visitors and many family and friends who came home for the occasion.
We had family visiting until around the 10th. Then we started in with birthdays. August is full of family birthdays. I don't care if I never have another piece of cake! I'm still trying to finish up my own.
On the 20th I headed back to work. We had two seperate two day workshops. That made for an exhausting week. On the 27th, the kids started school. The first week was so much fun. Some of the kids acted as if they hadn't seen each other in years and I KNOW they played together all summer long! :o)
I didn't have any visitors on my birthday because we were at a memorial service. Michael's dziish (grandmother)passed away at the age of 97. She was a wonderful lady who loved everyone and was loved by all. She called everyone her baby. She wasn't afraid to tell you if she thought you were doing wrong. But was always quick to tell you when you had made her happy or proud. She will definitely be missed by all who knew her.
So there you go...we had a lot going on...I just didn't make time to come and tell you about it. Hopefully now that I'm back on a regular schedule, I'll find time to write a post every now and then. Certainly more than the one a month I've been averaging!
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Not Enough Time
I was going to use this day to catch you up on the past month because I was supposed to have all kinds of free time. But, things happen and we can't help it...so this is a short post to let you know that I'll try again tomorrow.
I was supposed to have free time because Michael was supposed to be cooking my birthday dinner. But then my best friends grandmother (who also happens to be Michael's aunt) passed away on Tuesday so now we have to go to a memorial service.
I'll try again tomorrow.
I was supposed to have free time because Michael was supposed to be cooking my birthday dinner. But then my best friends grandmother (who also happens to be Michael's aunt) passed away on Tuesday so now we have to go to a memorial service.
I'll try again tomorrow.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Fifteen Years
Fifteen years ago today, at this exact time, I was up at my cousins house watching her steam my wedding dress. I was wondering if I was doing the right thing...if I was even mature enough to know what the right thing was. I was scared and excited all at the same time. It doesn't feel like it's been 15 years. Sometimes it barely feels like its been 15 months!
So much has happened in the past 15 years but some things have remained the same. We're still madly in love with each other, for one thing! :o) I'm not the same person I was 15 years ago, but I'm so happy I did not let my doubts scare me out of "taking the plunge".
I'll come back tomorrow and try to fill you in on the last month.
So much has happened in the past 15 years but some things have remained the same. We're still madly in love with each other, for one thing! :o) I'm not the same person I was 15 years ago, but I'm so happy I did not let my doubts scare me out of "taking the plunge".
I'll come back tomorrow and try to fill you in on the last month.
Monday, July 30, 2007
Visitors
I am so looking forward to the next few days! We're going to have so many visitors I don't think there will be enough time in the day to visit them all!
My cousin Evie is coming home...with two of her daughters, my favorite twins, and their new baby brother.
My cousin Vicki is home with her son and daughter.
My nephew Cameron is home with his lady and their tiny son.
Michael's big brother is home with his wife and daughter...and their son and his wife will be here in a few days.
My nephew Thomas is home for a visit.
My friend Eileen is here for a couple weeks.
I'm going to meet my cousin Ian for the first time ever!
I'm also going to meet my cousin Marilee for the first time ever!
Michael's sister Colleen is coming...with her son and her daughter (who is bringing her two kids).
Michael's sister Vivian will be here soon.
My best friends sisters are coming home...one tomorrow the other in about 4 days.
And those are just the ones I can think of at the moment. There will be a lot more because there will be 2 potlatches. So that means dance groups, too.
I wish I could count my mom as one of the visitors but I'm starting to wonder if she's ever going to come home again ever. My uncle said some really awful things about her when he was fighting for the house.
But that's not what this is about. This is about all of the fun reunions that are going to happen in the next few days. Even I'm looking forward to all of the get-togethers and I'm not usually a big fan of crowds. hehe I can't wait!
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On an unrelated note (or maybe along the same lines, i.e. reunions)...
I had a dream last night. My phone rang and it was an Unknown Caller. Normally I don't answer the phone if I don't know who's calling. The answering machine came on and I could tell there was a caller on the other end but they weren't talking. Convinced it wasn't a solicitor, I picked up the phone and said hello.
Nobody spoke at first but I heard a little giggle. I said, "Hello?" The second time someone replied.
She said, "Hi, Carrie. It's Millie."
My cousin Evie is coming home...with two of her daughters, my favorite twins, and their new baby brother.
My cousin Vicki is home with her son and daughter.
My nephew Cameron is home with his lady and their tiny son.
Michael's big brother is home with his wife and daughter...and their son and his wife will be here in a few days.
My nephew Thomas is home for a visit.
My friend Eileen is here for a couple weeks.
I'm going to meet my cousin Ian for the first time ever!
I'm also going to meet my cousin Marilee for the first time ever!
Michael's sister Colleen is coming...with her son and her daughter (who is bringing her two kids).
Michael's sister Vivian will be here soon.
My best friends sisters are coming home...one tomorrow the other in about 4 days.
And those are just the ones I can think of at the moment. There will be a lot more because there will be 2 potlatches. So that means dance groups, too.
I wish I could count my mom as one of the visitors but I'm starting to wonder if she's ever going to come home again ever. My uncle said some really awful things about her when he was fighting for the house.
But that's not what this is about. This is about all of the fun reunions that are going to happen in the next few days. Even I'm looking forward to all of the get-togethers and I'm not usually a big fan of crowds. hehe I can't wait!
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On an unrelated note (or maybe along the same lines, i.e. reunions)...
I had a dream last night. My phone rang and it was an Unknown Caller. Normally I don't answer the phone if I don't know who's calling. The answering machine came on and I could tell there was a caller on the other end but they weren't talking. Convinced it wasn't a solicitor, I picked up the phone and said hello.
Nobody spoke at first but I heard a little giggle. I said, "Hello?" The second time someone replied.
She said, "Hi, Carrie. It's Millie."
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Eight Random Things About Me
1. All right, here are the rules.
2. We have to post these rules before we give you the facts.
3. Players start with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
4. People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
5. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
So I've been tagged...by Connie...to do this meme. Eight random things shouldn't be hard, right? Except that it is. Ha! I'm not sure I can think of 8 things I haven't listed already. Hmmmm....
1. I love to sing in choirs. I was a part of at least one choir each year from 7th grade all the way through my time at college. Two of the college choirs were by audition only and the concert choir (open to all) was bigger than my whole highschool. We were on Good Morning America once when the World Mountain Bike Championships (or something like that) took place in the same town and we performed a patriotic medley. I haven't been in a choir in a few years...but I'm always singing in the car!
2. I have only held 2 jobs my entire life. My first job, in a t-shirt transfer shop, lasted an entire month. I quit when the shop owner started going through the garbage after my shift to see what I had been up to. If she didn't trust me, she shouldn't have left me alone after a single 15 minute training session! I haven't shopped in her store since. I'm kinda stubborn that way. I'm still working my 2nd job. I've been a school district employee since February of 1993.
3. I love to color. I don't care what it is. A children's coloring book, a geometric design, a coloring page from the internet, whatever. With crayons more than markers. The only things I will not color are my own drawings. I have the most fun when coloring with kids. For some reason, they think it's so funny for an adult to sit down and color with them! Some of my fondest childhood memories are of me sitting on the couch with Jerry, a family friend, and coloring. I always wanted my pages to look as nice as his.
4. I am incredibly shy. It's hard for me to form new friendships because its hard for me to approach people I don't know. Once you've gained my trust, though, good luck getting rid of me!
5. I love musicals. Any musical. My mom used to perform in the theater. I'd go to all of her rehearsals and have the entire show memorized before opening night. But I'd still go see it every chance I got. You can't beat live theater, but I'll watch any musical in any format. I drove my dad bonkers watching Annie over and over again on HBO when I was small. It wasn't so much that I watched it...I sang along. heehee
6. I've never broken a bone, but have had over a dozen surgical operations. Most of them before the age of 5.
7. I used to be scared of clowns. When I was really small, my uncle dressed as a hobo for our 4th of July parade. He thought it would be fun to pick me up and carry me but I didn't recognize him with his make-up and got hysterical. I was scared of clowns for years as a result. So much so, that when my mom took me and my sister to Barnum and Bailey's "Greatest Show on Earth" in Seattle, I missed most of the circus acts. The dressing room was below our seats and everytime I saw a clown heading to the dressing room, I put myself to sleep.
8. I have ridden an elephant.
So now comes the part where I'm supposed to tag 8 more people. I don't think I know 8 more bloggers who haven't already posted this or something similar. I'll just skip that part. Unless you read this and decide you want to participate!
Monday, July 09, 2007
Where is the Sun?
We had a very nice holiday despite the weather. It didn't rain all that hard and it wasn't constant so it wasn't as unbearable as we feared it would be.
The parade moved fast because of the weather, but there were a lot of participants. I'd post a small video of the firework display, but since they autoplay and I don't know how to disable that, I won't. I don't think fireworks and In The Garden would be a good mix. haha If you know how to find my Bebo page, you can view it there.
Michael's birthday was on the 3rd. He always tells me not to plan a party but his family always shows up anyway. It's a good thing I had cake to serve. I made spice cake with an apple filling. It was a huge hit and we had maybe about 1/4 of the cake left by the time they all left.
We went to Ketchikan on Friday so I could buy Michael his birthday gift. He needed a new chainsaw and I didn't trust myself to order one over the phone. We had to go so he could look at them and get the one he wanted. We went to a couple of movies while we were over there, too. It made for a very long day but it was nice to get away from home for the night.
He's been out of work for just over a week now. I've enjoyed having him home all day. I never understood how my friends could complain about too much time together. Why get married if you don't want to spend time with your husband? That just never made sense to me. Rick's wife is actually disappointed that he and Michael haven't gone back to California this year.
We had a few hours of mostly sunny skies yesterday but now we are back to rain. We haven't really had a summer this year. I don't remember, but my friend commented today that we shouldn't be seeing fireweed yet...that it usually blooms toward the end of summer. All I know is we haven't had enough sun. I really hope it clears up by the first week of August. We've got all kinds of people coming from out of town for our Founders Day celebrations, dance group anniversaries, and road dedication.
This has just been a rambling post full of nothing that really matters. I guess I should stop. I hope the rest of you had a safe, enjoyable holiday!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Okay, I Can Take a Hint
I'm sorry I haven't posted. I meant to. I just didn't.
I really haven't been up to a whole lot. Just relaxing, reading, and spending as little time on the computer as possible.
Michael is still working. He should have been done weeks ago but little things keep happening to prolong the job so he's still plugging away. The job with housing has started so he'll probably try to get hired there rather than go to California again. That's good because the pay will be better but I won't deny I'm a little disappointed. If he had gone to California I would have gone with him and that would have allowed me to see my mom and sister.
The more I think about it, the more I think we should be thinking about a permanent move. Not necessarily to California, but somewhere. Somewhere where he can find a more permanent job. Everytime we think we're ready we feel the pull of our family and end up staying. We're a couple of gumboots hopelessly stuck on this rock.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not unhappy here. There are plenty of things to love about this place. Especially this time of year. Everything is green and gorgeous and, aside from the mosquitoes, its a great time to be outdoors. Summer is a good time to be here.
Speaking of Summer, todays the first day of the season. Last year, Millie had this idea to stay up and watch the sun rise on the first day of summer. "Let's stay up and watch the start of summer", she said. So we did. Well, she didn't quite last till sunrise but we had fun trying. This time of year we'd chat first thing in the morning. She'd tell me where they were going to fish that day. I'd wish her luck and wait patiently for her to get back home to tell me how many fish they got. My days started and ended with Millie. I can't believe its coming up on 6 months since I've talked with her. My last contact with her was on the phone the day before she collapsed. I called her to thank her for the gift card she gave me for Christmas and let her know what I bought with it. I can't remember if I told her I love her.
I really haven't been up to a whole lot. Just relaxing, reading, and spending as little time on the computer as possible.
Michael is still working. He should have been done weeks ago but little things keep happening to prolong the job so he's still plugging away. The job with housing has started so he'll probably try to get hired there rather than go to California again. That's good because the pay will be better but I won't deny I'm a little disappointed. If he had gone to California I would have gone with him and that would have allowed me to see my mom and sister.
The more I think about it, the more I think we should be thinking about a permanent move. Not necessarily to California, but somewhere. Somewhere where he can find a more permanent job. Everytime we think we're ready we feel the pull of our family and end up staying. We're a couple of gumboots hopelessly stuck on this rock.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not unhappy here. There are plenty of things to love about this place. Especially this time of year. Everything is green and gorgeous and, aside from the mosquitoes, its a great time to be outdoors. Summer is a good time to be here.
Speaking of Summer, todays the first day of the season. Last year, Millie had this idea to stay up and watch the sun rise on the first day of summer. "Let's stay up and watch the start of summer", she said. So we did. Well, she didn't quite last till sunrise but we had fun trying. This time of year we'd chat first thing in the morning. She'd tell me where they were going to fish that day. I'd wish her luck and wait patiently for her to get back home to tell me how many fish they got. My days started and ended with Millie. I can't believe its coming up on 6 months since I've talked with her. My last contact with her was on the phone the day before she collapsed. I called her to thank her for the gift card she gave me for Christmas and let her know what I bought with it. I can't remember if I told her I love her.
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Warming Up
The weather is warming up. We were staying in the mid-to-high 50's all week. Now we're creeping up into the 60's. Tomorrow we're supposed to see 70. That's warm for here. Kids will be swimming in the ocean before too long if this keeps up.
Lucione got her job. She starts on Monday. She called me all excited on Thursday when she found out. She said, "Remember when I used to be a tight wad? I'm gonna be like that again!"
When she was really small, she LOVED money. She didn't spend it, but she loved to hoarde it. She had a stash here at my house, and another stash or two with her yaya. Whenever she'd find money, be it a dollar bill or a penny, she'd put it in her stash and every few months her yaya or her uncle and I would take her to the bank to make a deposit. She loved to see her balance go up! Too little to really understand what she was doing, but she loved it and we made a big deal out of her deposits.
A few years later, when she began to realize you could actually BUY things with money, she had big dreams of how she would spend her fortune. But still her money sits in the bank. She likes to plan...but can't part with her money. Which is a good thing, because her dreams were always full of Cool Ranch Doritos and Coke.
Michael was supposed to work today but the boss didn't show up. Same boss who killed the eggs last year. My goofy cousin. He decided to go and gather seaweed on the beach and didn't bother to call off work so Michael sat there for the better part of an hour until he finally decided to come back home. The boss just called...said he "forgot" to tell him last night. Funny how the rest of the crew knew all about it. Michael always gets forgotten.
But, the upside to that is, it's 63 degrees and we have a free afternoon! I'm so glad its warming up. I went to open my bedroom window this morning and realized I didn't even shut it last night. I didn't even feel a chill!
Lucione got her job. She starts on Monday. She called me all excited on Thursday when she found out. She said, "Remember when I used to be a tight wad? I'm gonna be like that again!"
When she was really small, she LOVED money. She didn't spend it, but she loved to hoarde it. She had a stash here at my house, and another stash or two with her yaya. Whenever she'd find money, be it a dollar bill or a penny, she'd put it in her stash and every few months her yaya or her uncle and I would take her to the bank to make a deposit. She loved to see her balance go up! Too little to really understand what she was doing, but she loved it and we made a big deal out of her deposits.
A few years later, when she began to realize you could actually BUY things with money, she had big dreams of how she would spend her fortune. But still her money sits in the bank. She likes to plan...but can't part with her money. Which is a good thing, because her dreams were always full of Cool Ranch Doritos and Coke.
Michael was supposed to work today but the boss didn't show up. Same boss who killed the eggs last year. My goofy cousin. He decided to go and gather seaweed on the beach and didn't bother to call off work so Michael sat there for the better part of an hour until he finally decided to come back home. The boss just called...said he "forgot" to tell him last night. Funny how the rest of the crew knew all about it. Michael always gets forgotten.
But, the upside to that is, it's 63 degrees and we have a free afternoon! I'm so glad its warming up. I went to open my bedroom window this morning and realized I didn't even shut it last night. I didn't even feel a chill!
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Catching Up
So many things have happened this past month. I can't believe how fast time has passed! Between all of the graduations and spring concerts, school was just a whirlwind of activity right up to the very last day with Field Day!
I have had 2 full days at home alone now, and am still finding it hard to fill my time. I don't like to sit and watch the television hours on end, nor do I enjoy sitting at my computer all day any more. I don't have anyone to chat with, so time just drags when I'm online.
I mentioned in my previous post that both Michael and I had lost an uncle. His Uncle Chuck died on the beach gathering seafood for his family. That was one of his favorite things to do. He showed Michael his favorite spots for devil fish (octopus) a while back. Michael was so tickled. Now he almost feels as if he shouldn't go there because Chuck is no longer with us. I told him that if Chuck had wanted him to stay away he wouldn't have shared his secrets. I think at the next low tide, I'll encourage him to at least walk on Chuck's beach even if he can't find it in him to bring anything home.
My Uncle Don passed away after a long bout with cancer. I hadn't seen him recently but have many fond memories of him from my childhood. He was quiet but quick to smile. He had a unique and contagious laugh. That's what I'm going to miss the most. He lost his wife and children when they were young. I never did know how. I know he missed them, though, even after all these years. His passing has brought my family closer together. I'm sad that it took his death for us to realize we were drifting apart, but thankful at the same time. He's not suffering anymore and now we all have each other again. A blessing in disguise, I suppose.
Lucione and Lindsey are doing well. Lucione is filling out applications to hopefully get her first job. She doesn't like to spend money, but she likes having it. That will help her later in life, I think. She's quite responsible when it comes to money. The exact opposite of her mother. Lindsey is looking forward to going to a sleep-away camp in Juneau.
I am waiting to hear if Michael has a job and with which company. He has a chance to work with our housing authority as a truck driver. They need 25 new pads for 25 new houses. He also has been offered a job with the same company that had him traveling back and forth. He could possibly end up back in Fresno. He wants to work here at home because it means more money. I kinda want him to work in Fresno. We've discussed it and decided that if he gets a job in Fresno, rather than traveling back and forth, he'll stay down there all summer and I'll come join him. That would mean I'd be just a few hours drive away from my mom and sister. I haven't seen them in way too long and this would be a good chance to sneak in on them. I haven't told my mom yet...so if you are a part of my bebo page, please remember it's a secret! He's got a few days left with his current job and then we'll see what happens.
I think that's about it for now.
I have had 2 full days at home alone now, and am still finding it hard to fill my time. I don't like to sit and watch the television hours on end, nor do I enjoy sitting at my computer all day any more. I don't have anyone to chat with, so time just drags when I'm online.
I mentioned in my previous post that both Michael and I had lost an uncle. His Uncle Chuck died on the beach gathering seafood for his family. That was one of his favorite things to do. He showed Michael his favorite spots for devil fish (octopus) a while back. Michael was so tickled. Now he almost feels as if he shouldn't go there because Chuck is no longer with us. I told him that if Chuck had wanted him to stay away he wouldn't have shared his secrets. I think at the next low tide, I'll encourage him to at least walk on Chuck's beach even if he can't find it in him to bring anything home.
My Uncle Don passed away after a long bout with cancer. I hadn't seen him recently but have many fond memories of him from my childhood. He was quiet but quick to smile. He had a unique and contagious laugh. That's what I'm going to miss the most. He lost his wife and children when they were young. I never did know how. I know he missed them, though, even after all these years. His passing has brought my family closer together. I'm sad that it took his death for us to realize we were drifting apart, but thankful at the same time. He's not suffering anymore and now we all have each other again. A blessing in disguise, I suppose.
Lucione and Lindsey are doing well. Lucione is filling out applications to hopefully get her first job. She doesn't like to spend money, but she likes having it. That will help her later in life, I think. She's quite responsible when it comes to money. The exact opposite of her mother. Lindsey is looking forward to going to a sleep-away camp in Juneau.
I am waiting to hear if Michael has a job and with which company. He has a chance to work with our housing authority as a truck driver. They need 25 new pads for 25 new houses. He also has been offered a job with the same company that had him traveling back and forth. He could possibly end up back in Fresno. He wants to work here at home because it means more money. I kinda want him to work in Fresno. We've discussed it and decided that if he gets a job in Fresno, rather than traveling back and forth, he'll stay down there all summer and I'll come join him. That would mean I'd be just a few hours drive away from my mom and sister. I haven't seen them in way too long and this would be a good chance to sneak in on them. I haven't told my mom yet...so if you are a part of my bebo page, please remember it's a secret! He's got a few days left with his current job and then we'll see what happens.
I think that's about it for now.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Mother's Day
Yeah, I know...it's been over a MONTH since my last post! It's been a very busy month with plenty of ups and downs and here it is already Mother's Day.
Between baby showers, retirement parties, the death of one of Michael's uncles, the death of an uncle of my own, and trying to wind down to the end of the school year, I have tried to keep my sanity and my wits about me.
Now it's Mother's Day. I can't reach my mom. She had to work today. I've left messages on both of her phones and drew a picture for her on her Bebo whiteboard but haven't talked to her.
We don't really talk on the phone all that often, anyway, but I'm still a bit disappointed.
The weather is gorgeous today. Low 50's right now at 7PM. That's summer weather in these parts. haha We went for a drive, got pictures of a blue jay, and came home to find a gift on the couch (nope...we don't lock our doors when we leave the house; I don't remember the last time I used a key to get in).
It's a set of candles in martini glasses. It's a Mother's Day gift. From my in-laws. They both wrote very nice messages to me thanking me for being a 2nd mom to my girls. I got a phone call from Lindsey. She said, "Hi, Auntie. I just wanted to wish you a Happy Mother's Day. You're my 2nd mom, remember?"
Like I could forget.
I've dedicated much of my life to taking care of them. I help them with homework, lecture them about breaking curfew, talk to them about boys, attend every single activity they participate in, and have even been known to hand out a punishment or two.
I let them talk and when it's my turn, they listen. I am still amazed at how well, even after all these years.
I slipped up one time a few months ago. Lindsey was wearing make-up for the first time and I said to Michael, "Look at your daughter!" Nobody even caught the mistake. When I realized what I had said, Space Cadet said, "It's okay. You ARE their 2nd set of parents."
If I never bear a child of my own, it will be okay. It doesn't hurt as much as it used to. I'm actually glad I was free to be there for my nieces as much as I have been. To be able to give them my full attention and all of my love and the best guidance I knew how. I would never take full credit for raising them but it's nice to know that others, even the girls themselves, give me partial credit for the wonderful young ladies they are growing up to be.
Happy Mother's Day to the rest of you. Including you, Jay, another wonderful 2nd mother. :o)
Between baby showers, retirement parties, the death of one of Michael's uncles, the death of an uncle of my own, and trying to wind down to the end of the school year, I have tried to keep my sanity and my wits about me.
Now it's Mother's Day. I can't reach my mom. She had to work today. I've left messages on both of her phones and drew a picture for her on her Bebo whiteboard but haven't talked to her.
We don't really talk on the phone all that often, anyway, but I'm still a bit disappointed.
The weather is gorgeous today. Low 50's right now at 7PM. That's summer weather in these parts. haha We went for a drive, got pictures of a blue jay, and came home to find a gift on the couch (nope...we don't lock our doors when we leave the house; I don't remember the last time I used a key to get in).
It's a set of candles in martini glasses. It's a Mother's Day gift. From my in-laws. They both wrote very nice messages to me thanking me for being a 2nd mom to my girls. I got a phone call from Lindsey. She said, "Hi, Auntie. I just wanted to wish you a Happy Mother's Day. You're my 2nd mom, remember?"
Like I could forget.
I've dedicated much of my life to taking care of them. I help them with homework, lecture them about breaking curfew, talk to them about boys, attend every single activity they participate in, and have even been known to hand out a punishment or two.
I let them talk and when it's my turn, they listen. I am still amazed at how well, even after all these years.
I slipped up one time a few months ago. Lindsey was wearing make-up for the first time and I said to Michael, "Look at your daughter!" Nobody even caught the mistake. When I realized what I had said, Space Cadet said, "It's okay. You ARE their 2nd set of parents."
If I never bear a child of my own, it will be okay. It doesn't hurt as much as it used to. I'm actually glad I was free to be there for my nieces as much as I have been. To be able to give them my full attention and all of my love and the best guidance I knew how. I would never take full credit for raising them but it's nice to know that others, even the girls themselves, give me partial credit for the wonderful young ladies they are growing up to be.
Happy Mother's Day to the rest of you. Including you, Jay, another wonderful 2nd mother. :o)
Monday, April 09, 2007
Tossin' and Turnin'
in·som·ni·a
–noun inability to obtain sufficient sleep, esp. when chronic; difficulty in falling or staying asleep; sleeplessness.
Lately I've been suffering from insomnia. I don't know what's causing it, but it's getting worse. Last night I didn't sleep AT ALL. I wasn't able to fall asleep till after 5:00AM. Needless to say, I didn't work today. I hate missing work but there was no way I could have gotten up at 6AM after falling asleep after 5AM and be able to function at work.
I've been having trouble sleeping for a couple of weeks, but this is the worst it's been. I've been able to function on 4 to 5 hours of sleep a night. I kept thinking the lack of sleep would eventually catch up to me and I'd fall back into a regular and more healthy sleep cycle. It hasn't happened and I've actually considered buying over-the-counter sleeping pills.
I hate taking pills. I don't even like taking asprin unless I absolutely have to. I'd much rather figure out what's causing my sleeplessness and fix it. I've had insomnia before, but it's always been in the summer when it didn't matter. It's so frustrating to feel tired and not be able to sleep. I tried everything. I switched beds...moved to the couch...watched tv...read a book...turned the heat down...turned the heat up...bundled up in blankets...used nothing but a sheet...NOTHING worked. Not until the clock struck 5AM and my brain finally shut off. I slept till about 12:30. I normally sleep 7 to 8 hours so I feel rested now. But how will I be able to fall asleep tonight after sleeping half of today away?
Saturday, April 07, 2007
On the Mend
I'm feeling so much better now. I'm no longer limping, I can actually lift my arm above my head without wincing, and my bruises are not sensitive to the touch unless they get bumped. I'm so glad that's over with. Now I'll be lucky if Michael lets me go hiking again any time soon. This wasn't even a real hike. Sheesh, we could see the lake from the road.
Millie's husband called me last night from the hospital. He put me on speaker phone and let me talk to Millie. Trouble was, he TOLD me I was on speaker phone and I got shy. I knew it was just Millie, her husband, and her youngest daughter...but stupid me, I still got shy and panicked. I couldn't think of what to say. Of course I told her I miss her and love her...I'm asking God to heal her and wake her up. After we hung up I thought of SO many things I could have told her. She's always asking about the weather. I could have told her about all the snow we got. I didn't tell her the birds have returned. Robins are everywhere. I didn't even tell her about the swans. :o( Adam said she opened her left eye a bit while I was talking to her. I like to think it's because she knew who I was and wanted to hear what I had to say.
Millie's husband called me last night from the hospital. He put me on speaker phone and let me talk to Millie. Trouble was, he TOLD me I was on speaker phone and I got shy. I knew it was just Millie, her husband, and her youngest daughter...but stupid me, I still got shy and panicked. I couldn't think of what to say. Of course I told her I miss her and love her...I'm asking God to heal her and wake her up. After we hung up I thought of SO many things I could have told her. She's always asking about the weather. I could have told her about all the snow we got. I didn't tell her the birds have returned. Robins are everywhere. I didn't even tell her about the swans. :o( Adam said she opened her left eye a bit while I was talking to her. I like to think it's because she knew who I was and wanted to hear what I had to say.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Feeling OLD
I'm feeling age creep up on me lately. The white hair doesn't bother me. My hair started changing in high school. But my body is feeling my age. I'm not old...but I'm far from being a spring chicken!
What I didn't tell you about my Sunday with my girls is the fact that I fell down while walking through to woods to see the swans. I twisted both ankles, scratched up my left forearm and bruised my left knee and shin pretty good. My left wrist is swollen and my right shoulder has been aching. At times it's hard to move my arm and Michael has talked me out of going to work 2 days in a row.
I hate missing work, but he's right when he says, "I think you should stay home if you can't move your arm. I think you need your arm at work." Had it been my left arm, I think I could have managed, but it's my right side and I'm right-handed for everything but eating.
Space Cadet thinks I should go to the clinic but I refuse. It's actually better today than it was yesterday. I just had an awful nights sleep because I kept rolling over onto my stomach and that hurt my bruises so I'd wake up. Sleeping on my back hurts my shoulder but I forgot to take Tylenol before bed last night. So tomorrow I'll go to work because I'm tired of staying home. I'll listen to her nag me about going to the clinic but I will not give in. What's the worst it could be? A broken collar bone, maybe? They'd just put me in a sling and give me Motrin.
No thanks, I'm just fine.
What I didn't tell you about my Sunday with my girls is the fact that I fell down while walking through to woods to see the swans. I twisted both ankles, scratched up my left forearm and bruised my left knee and shin pretty good. My left wrist is swollen and my right shoulder has been aching. At times it's hard to move my arm and Michael has talked me out of going to work 2 days in a row.
I hate missing work, but he's right when he says, "I think you should stay home if you can't move your arm. I think you need your arm at work." Had it been my left arm, I think I could have managed, but it's my right side and I'm right-handed for everything but eating.
Space Cadet thinks I should go to the clinic but I refuse. It's actually better today than it was yesterday. I just had an awful nights sleep because I kept rolling over onto my stomach and that hurt my bruises so I'd wake up. Sleeping on my back hurts my shoulder but I forgot to take Tylenol before bed last night. So tomorrow I'll go to work because I'm tired of staying home. I'll listen to her nag me about going to the clinic but I will not give in. What's the worst it could be? A broken collar bone, maybe? They'd just put me in a sling and give me Motrin.
No thanks, I'm just fine.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Springy Sunday
What a beautiful day today! The sun was shining, I think we got over 40 degrees, and there was hardly any wind.
Space Cadet had a choir concert in Town today so her girls hung out with me. It was the first time we had both of them at the same time in quite a while. We had so much fun. We were outdoors for most of the day. We had a blast and they actually got along! When they were little we couldn't have both of them at the same time for more than a couple hours because they'd either get way too nuts or start fighting. It helps that they're both teenagers now, but they still have their moments. We kept them busy enough, though, that they had a very enjoyable day with each other without so much as a dirty look between them.
I want to apologize to anyone who still happens to be reading my blog. I don't know what's come over me...or maybe it's something that "hasn't". I just can't bring myself to visit my blog lately. I'm not online as much as I used to be. I'd like to say it's because I'm too busy doing other things. I'd like to...but I can't. I think about it...but when I turn the computer on I end up checking my e-mail...checking in with my mom and sister...maybe taking a peek at Bebo...and then I'm back off again.
Maybe I miss chatting with Millie. I've been thinking about her a lot lately. For the past 3 months, actually, but especially the past few days. They've moved her back to Alaska but she is still asleep. I knew she was a big part of my life before all of this but I don't think I realized just how big a part she played. I'd rush home from work everyday to turn on the computer and see if she was online. She'd ask me about my day and tell me about hers. She'd let me see her grand-daughter on the webcam. We'd look at each others blogs and Bebo pages...sometimes play games together. There were times we wouldn't even talk...but just knowing she was there was enough. If we couldn't connect online we'd talk on the phone. I really miss her. I pray for her every time I worry and lately I've been praying a lot. Part of me is feeling selfish. I want to know that she will remember me when she wakes up. Then I feel guilty. I shouldn't have thoughts like that and in reality that is not a big concern of mine at this point. I just want her to wake up so her family can have her back. If she never talks to me again, I will learn to live with that and be thankful for what we had. It's her family who needs her. Our friendship was truly God-given and I will be eternally grateful for all that she has done for me.
I think our outting today has a lot to do with me thinking so much about Millie. We saw some swans on the lake and Millie loves swans. One time we were online playing games and we decided to change our screen names to see if we could spot each other. I changed mine to NuYuuGwa'a, which means "It's Me!". Of course she knew it was me right away because of the spelling...she recognized it as being my native language. She changed her name to SwanLady. I thought of her when we were at the lake today. When I got home I wanted to show her the swans and for a split second forgot that I can't.
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